My life has been very hectic as ever...projects are lining up and have to start off soon...first is FCSOS project which is quite simple...and the next is NMM project...

I had several depression. Mainly due to to much work and not enough rest...but I know myself too well so I begining to take care myself more often...so don't worry too much about me...

Just need to regain my composure and to have more extra effort to pull myself through this semester...loads of subjects doesn't mean that I will fail...I will not blame the failure due to the subjects...it is all about time management...guess I have to be more focus in the issue....

I sometimes doesn't understand what is my fault that each time they see me as if I'm a fraud or a crook...Sometimes, they have this feeling , isolating myself with absolute aloofness...I tried to conform to their ways and trying to make them as comfortable as possible but I guess they have misintrepreted it into something else...I can't say much...but deep within me, I have this hunch that they don't like me sticking with them...I did what I have to do...and nothing else...it is their problem and if they are not happy, they are most welcome to talk to me face to face...I don't like people beating about the bush and implying something else and misleading into some other analogy...If it is meant for me, by all means...talk to me and just shoot it out...I can swallow everything...and take it in with me...sometimes I get fed up often because people are scared to talk to me about the things they are not happy with...

It is not like I want to eat them or what...only I show occasional temper...that's all... I just don't like to read between the lines...I want real answers...not just mere advice....Alright, I had enough lamenting...need to have a deep bath and leave in my dreams...