Alright...I'm still waiting for the results to come out by the end of this month...I know how atrocious it will be so I just kept praying that it will be as light as possible...I don't want my mum to scream at my face for that....

Fasting month already sets in and it is already the third day...another 27 days to go...Although it is good to really make up your bad deeds but then again why repenting when you know you going to do the same thing again...or worse still, doing more bad things...

Visiting relatives has been a tradition for years, asking forgiveness and stuff like that...after the whole shit is over...it is back to square one...that is why I felt is totally a waste of time and money visiting such people who don't deserve to have our sympathy at all...when I told my mum about this, she said that we should be forgiving because they are part of the family afterall...yeah lets see about that.....I'm not trying to be mean or what but it is the fact....

Okay let's stop all this, I really have a headache thinking about it...All I want it to have a good life...

My school term going to start on 6 Dec which is like month away for now...mum has been bugging me to look for a job but what job out there could support me and my lifestyle...I'm not a snob or what...try to picture this...if I had a job located far away from my home, I still need to think about the transport fare...to and fro...times the number of days I'm working...then how about my lunches and perhaps even dinners...then about paying bills and chip in a few household allowances...and on top of that I don't have any experience at all...do you think I can get above 500 for all of that...and it is for one month....do you think it is worth to try...I'll be at the losing end without a doubt...

Even though you may say that I could earn less than that and consider it still money...I still have to think about the stuff I needed for school...don't think too far about that...daily expenses eventually goble up my money...how sad can it be...haiz...money and life are two inseparable elements of a human being...

Alright need to go and fetch something....blog later...