Today...I didn't have any mood at all. Partly due to the fact the I'm going to fail OPSY paper...one great blow to me for the first time...I really have a hard time managing my time...I didn't sleep just to keep on practising the revision paper...I'm really despressed...

How could this happened to me with all the preparations that I made and in the end it turn up this way...I could devote my energy more on DBSY rather than the one that I know I'm going to screw up...

You could blame me for not being diligent enough...not paying attention and all those things....but I believe that if you are going to make it happened, you must have the interest in your heart...there is no point in pursuing something against your will....Seriously, OPSY has never invoked that spirit...Never in my life....

Sleep after sleep, even I immersed myself in something that I do, this mishap is very inevitable...I can sense that I'm not going to be the top students at all which I had promised loads of people....sometimes I say that to hell with being the top students...at the same time it makes me even more depressing that you are not one of them...

You may argue with me that I didn't know the overall results....yeah I didn't know at all...but I had already calculated my CA marks and I did not do that good either...how am I supposed to convince myself that I will scrape a pass with this one...

Very hard to determine now and my mind are very cloudy....to hard to comprehend what had just happened...hopefully things will get better...much better....