I don't know whether I wasted a chance for OSIP... I was really confused at that point...I had go over it a few times since last week...

The thing about OSIP is that, you need a lot of allowance to cover up the expenses there...Honestly, I don't have that kind of money...and I don't want to ask from my parents either...I don't want to see them toiling day and night extra just to get me for OSIP...

Pretty painful dilemma because my heart says it is fun to be there and furthermore, you will gain even better experience working with foreigners...I certainly do agree...but my conscience is holding me back...I want to see the outcome first...

So I decided to give in and I let it slipped from my hands...Somethings in life can never come free...

When I heard my friends signing up for this OSIP I was kind of envious and rather kind of hate myself...

I cannot blame them because they could afford to go there...Money has become quite an issue for me...

I was probably right that I could earn my allowance there when I work...but what about the preparations, insurance, the air ticket, there could be a payment for your stay there...Thinking aobut this, I could picture the horror of my mother's face...

So I decided to let it just passed by and stay low for a while...

On the bright side is that I could to celebrate Hari Raya here with my family...or else I would celebrate with my assignments only...

Even though how hard I try to let it go out of my head, the sense of excitement and the thrill of it is still there...

There goes another part of me...