Today's tour of duty quite good. At least I don't have to be despatched to Toa Payoh for any stupid messages.

The fasting month is nearing and I don't really feel it. It wasn't like the feeling like I used to have years ago when you are very eager to fast and hope to get into a festive mood. In the modern days like this, the feeling seemed to have disspated over the years.

I know it is not about not getting any green packets, it is about getting into the spirit of fasting and celebrating at the end of it. Usually, my house will be brighten up and will be heavily discussing what to buy or what colour to wear for Hari Raya. Nowadays, we are too busy with work. Imagine, my shift falls on the day itself.

I don't know if whatever I'm doing now going to benefit me in the future. I felt that I'm missing something. Hrm...

Okay, my NS years are getting a bit kinda tough. NPCO life can never be good. It depends on how lucky you are and also how to avoid all sorts of trouble. I really mean, all sorts of trouble. I can consider myself a little lucky because of my team mates. Know your teammates well and I guess you are be well taken care of except that you may be deployed unnecessarily.

Everytime I think about the uncertain future, I got a bit depressed. It is something I foresee all the negative things and the worst case scenarios. I have developed this typical habit a long time. It is use to prevent myself from having too high hopes on anything else.

I need to head for the showers. Nites...