Impending doom, lack of manpower, endless dilemma....that's what going to happen to me about work...

Really, I'm the only SC left w.e.f 22/10/2007. That means, if any deployment request for an SC, that would be me. Wah! Damn jialat !

Even though, I know a new SC will come soon around that period but I have to put up with whims and whatnots of my teammates. A mere SC or NSF, cannot do anything except to complain here...haiz.

I have already done today's deployment outside Istana and we did arrested CSJ & Co. The government really should put him in exile but I guess he is only a ikan bilis. The deployment ended shortly after he was arrested. It was raining yet successful.

I don't know how to fend myself when I don't have an SC to share my burden. Most likely, they would expect me to do more and sacrifice a lot more. Well, I'm not against any duty that I'm suppose to do but I don't like to be taken advantage.

Even though they meant no harm but they could harbour thoughts of using you, telling that, "Eh? He can do ____________(fill in the blanks) what? Why not him? I want to take MC/Leave/Urgent Leave/Claim Hours * Delete where necessary."

I know, that's a mere presumption but turns out to be a true fact in the end. Like I said in one of my previous entries, SC is just a mere slave. Bound to the duties that whatever he is told to do. Face a harsh punishment if failed to do so. Nothing but threats.

Sounds like I kena bully. Sooner or later, I will get bullied. People will start arrowing and I will try as hard as possible to dodge it but never get to move an inch. Why? I was nailed from the beginning.

New TL is coming on this 10th. I don't know what is his expectations. Well, he has already have a brief idea what is our team like. He looked fierce but he got some welfare side for his team. I don't know if manpower problem would still persist after he take over. So far, our DTL Ang has been taking care since our Mdm was out due to her swollen leg.

I don't really have any major concern. Only that, my deployment will get suckier till ORD. That's for sure. I'm not pinning high hopes. The more I hope for the better, the more I get disappointed. Just don't like to think positive. I always think about the negative and how to live around it. That's my motto in life. Never have high hopes.

As my counter said, I still got another 172 more shifts to go. Haiz. I shouldn't think too much about it. I'm helpless. Seriously, helpless.

Tata.